I set a goal for myself about 6 months ago to reduce the number of days I work at my “survival job” so that I can create space to grow my healing practices, lecture and teach. It is now “6 months later” and I have recently shifted my schedule, reduced my hours at work, and created tons of space for my Soul’s desire. My goal has become a reality. Yes!
Since this shift has occurred, I have managed to lock myself out of my car, my office and my apartment… twice. I have been walking around lost in my thoughts, making plans, obsessing about growing my businesses and worrying about the effect that reducing my hours at work will have on my pocketbook.
Maintaining a spiritual practice, I focused on trusting and surrendering. With an Inner Knowing that this is the path for me at this time, I surrendered. I jumped off the cliff and trusted that the Earth would catch me. I truly believe that as I align myself with my Higher Purpose, the Universe aligns itself to support me on my journey.
SOOO….WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH LOCKING MYSELF OUT ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!
As a healer I am trained to look at things from a holistic perspective. I ask myself “What’s happening physically, mentally and spiritually?” I begin to notice myself with the utmost love and compassion towards myself…beating myself up for locking myself out is not going to help the situation. ..at all.
I notice I am not grounded in my physical body. I have temporarily lost my ability to stay present in the moment. I am so lost in my mental body that I am not aware of my physical existence. Why? What are these thoughts that prevent me from staying present? Again, I notice this time focusing on the constant mind chatter that is taking over: Will I be able to support myself now that I have reduced my hours? What if I am not able to grow my practice? What is next on the ‘to do’ list? I have to do this…I have to do that…Can’t stay gotta go take care of this…
I find myself going from one project to the next. A master at multi-tasking I have been going about 150 miles an hour even forgetting to eat sometimes. It really hits me when I realize on a Friday that I was supposed to feed my friend’s dog…on Wednesday…that was a tough one to swallow and I am humbled even sharing it with you now.
It enters my consciousness that I have been operating in a frenzied state of survival. I realize that my financial stability, provided by my work, grounds me. Stepping into the unknown has uprooted my 1st Chakra causing me to lose my connection to my physical body and thus sending all of my energy to my mental body. Anodea Judith states that “In a state of ‘groundedness’, worries about the future are more easily assailed, and enjoyment of the present moment takes on a new luster.”Ah-Huh…clearly not where I have been in the last few days…ok, what’s next???
GROUNDING MY ENERGY!! How do I do this? I rest, I make myself slow down, I eat healthy foods, I balance my checkbook and re-do my budget, go running in nature, clean my apartment, increase my meditation practice and let go of the worrying. I don’t do these all at once mind you, that would have defeated the purpose!
These are all 1st Chakra healing activities that help me come back into my body. In this state of ‘groundedness’ I begin to truly trust that I will be taken care of. I surrender to the moment of what the Universe has to offer me right NOW. I realize I am at the precipice of change and I allow myself to embrace that change without fear.
I also engage all of my other chakras in healing activities by writing about my experiences (2nd Chakra Creative), Continuing to make contacts so I can grow my practice (3rd Chakra Will), Connect with my friends for support (4th Chakra Relationships), add Chanting to my meditation (5th Chakra Sound), and I use visioning to create the life I want for myself (6th and 7th Chakra).
Through my newfound ground I know I will manifest exactly what I need to support myself!
To being grounded!
Patty Alfonso BMC, EHT
Harmony Healing
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